Unexplainable Fear

this unexplainable fear grew more and more each day, taking everything i have within me. all that is left is a silent cry, at night. the more i tried to get rid of this fear, the more it creeps to me, more and more each day. is is the fear of losing the ones you love? or is it because i can't handle getting hurt anymore? am i that fragile, i wonder. gathering up all my thoughts, maybe i am already in pieces right now, shattered and left alone on the floor. picking them up but can't seem to put them back the way it use to be.

all this feeling is too much for myself to handle, its going to explode soon out of me; i feel like crying out loud, screaming on top of my lungs, so the whole world can hear me, hear my pain, my cries. i cry, i cry. and while all this happens, whos there for me? to catch me when i fall? having my back? 

i feel so weak, so fragile. will things ever go back the way they used to be? should i keep on hoping, or gather up the pieces and rebuild my life back from 0? i wish i could be a baby again, all so innocent, not knowing what is to expect ahead in life. i took a glimpse of the past, so many decisions i made that i wish i hadn't. i'm regretting, while tears are flowing down my hot red cheeks.