Happy Birthday, Rai!

Happy Birthday, Rai!

haha, raisa is my sister, and her birthday was on the 27'th of november. I'll share a little bit about her; Heidi Nathania Raisa Salim, a really tough girl yet soft at heart:D a kind of person anyone would look up to, Straight A student, top of her class mostly, undefeatable basketball champion, a guitar freak, oh shes basically multi-talented. so proud of you, hope throughout your 16th year of life, you'll accomplish greater things and be able to influence a lot more others.

Pa-Nic

I am in the depths of being indiscribably too hyper, I am in panicking.

Of all reasons to be panic, I am panicked because;
theres a slight possibility that i'll be watching TWILIGHT tonight! But I am panicking because..I'm watching (maybe) with Inez, Adri, Bella. And whoever else who wants to join, you're all more than welcome. But, We need a parent accompanient since we're watching midnight, and, all our parents can't make it. So, now we're panicking to find someone old enough to accompany us watch! But, we dont know whom.

Any ideas? Contribute, please.

P.S, I have been online for about 8 hours straight, from 8am till now, 3:59 pm. Go die men, Gtg and study!

Blissful

I'm currently feeling : Blissful

Why? I dont know, haha or maybe i do. Today was an exhausting friday, really. Exams are catching up, overloading school works, a chapel to organize, our christmast number to perform, phew. Today is Officialy Teddy's 13th Birthday, (Happy B'day Ted). We organized a surprise party for him haha, and it went well:D He was so shocked, yet thrilled with overwhelming joy. Or at least, I hope.

Besides that, today, after basketball practice, Cambridge International went over, and had a friendly match with us, we won 26 19, tehee. I'm totally jaded. Directly went to my bed and get some zzz as soon as i got home. Blissful, still.

Twilighters!

For you all twilighters everywhere;

Twilight, what a world wide phenomenal release, indeed. I'm predicting you guys are reading it too, or have been. Because primarily, its the most awaited movie right now! It's out already, midnight though. Can't wait to actually watch it. As the excitement builds, I've currently been re-reading the Twilight SAGA, out of boredness and impatience to see the movie! Read it, Trust me you'll fall in love with it.

Just for the satisfaction of seeing their picture:D

Fatal Distraction

Hell-ow; 

Today, I'm randomly going to post about : EXAMS!

Mid-term exams are drawing near, approximately 2 weeks to be exact. 

I'm hyperventilating. Of panic. 

Will I be ready by then? I haven't exactly even start studying for exams, since i am primarily a selfish creature who tends to procrastinate 8)

I'll share a little bit about my day too: It was just an ordinary day, frankly. We reviewed mostly. But we had dance practice for our christmas number. we're doing swing. its nearly like waltz, just with more turns, and with faster beats. And we're doing it with partners.. the rest i'll leave it to surprise for you fellow lenterians!

Inevitable Thoughts

Greetings!

A few thoughts and numerous of unanswered questions flew by my mind today, and i'm gonna share some of it here;

1. Its really inconceivable that i am or at least try to take steps back from him, and i slightly don't think im competent enough to do it.
2. I hope my avoidance would be insconspicious to him, would he think i dislike him or being near him?
3. The fact that i'm irrevocably in love with him is just incontrovertible. How will i ever overcome something thats plainly unsurmountable?

Despite all that, i'm not ready to be defeated in this fight against my inner self, ill try my best! wish me luck! 

Blank

Hello dear readers; i am simply devastated of current boredness. Currently re-reading twilight and listening to You Do, You Don't - Friday Night Boys. i love all their songs, its so calming and easy-listening kindof songs. i was supposed to start my day with an early swim, but overwhelmed by laziness, i canceled on it and instead, slept in.

I woke up and re-read twilight SAGA all over again, yes. back from twilight. i can't wait for it to go big screen on december. as for 'letting go' i am trying to get a hold of myself. despite that, back to my day. i went to eat with my mom. i was craving for cream puff soup since i am tormented by this sickness of mine. i hope to get well soon.

I have bad news: all the songs and pictures in my ipod... accidentally got deleted and now its blank! its not as easy as it sounds to just sync it back to my itunes, because my ipod has been passed on and around, its not only synced with mine, but so many others. i'll have to recollect songs. thats lousy.

ttys

Sigh

Right now, i'm taking a break of it all. simply taking a break from thinking and regretting. taking a deep breath, a loud sigh. filling in the empty blanks in my head with anything rather than that. i'm recovering, healing by time.. i hope.

So, instead of mourning and being all sad and emo, i'm going to share about.. my day. today is the official 'teacher's appreciation day' in sli. so eventually, we were thanking all our teachers, giving them cards and gifts per classes. it was a quite exhausting day (or is it just long lasting effects of the field trip? i'm sick btw). And our sli varsity team, had a sparring vs. cambridge? if i'm not mistaken. good luck eagles, have fun!

Besides that, my day was pretty much uneventful. unless you call out "fights" eventful. if you're wondering, i don't want to talk about it. its unimportant anyways. i am currently sitting in front of the computer, chewing and swallowing jellies while listening to shuffled songs from itunes, chatting and tagging random pictures as well. refreshing... but my mind is still not resting.

'Letting Go'

Having to let go of someone you irrevocably love, tremendously admire, extremely care for is... hard. really, just thinking about it hurts so bad. when he seems to be the only thing you desire; you ever wanted, you had to let go. i'm trying, really. well at least i'm going to. to the very least bit try, is it bearable? i wonder.

The term 'letting go' itself brings back quite a lot of memories that i wished to not look back to, that i don't want to recall and reminice. i'm so emo now, oh no. i wish i never even gotten myself in this mess, i wish i should've known better, i wish i could at least get over him before its all too hard, getting over him now is the best thing i can do. rather then hurting myself in the end? cz it will be way harder if i am irrevocably in love and can't turn back no more. 

How i wish life is like a fairytale, to be able to live happily ever after and all that. like all those disney princesses, cinderella, ariel, belle, snow white, sleeping beauty they all have their prince and lived happily ever after in the end, oh how i wish. moving on, letting go, i wish i could escape reality and live in my own fantasized world; impossible yes i know. 

this is all for the best, is what i kept repeating to myself. faking a smile, hiding my tears. i've fallen apart. i am regretting, regretting of having to fall for him, regretting of having to get involved with him, i wanna run away, escape. its all too much, the pressure; pain. But yet, this is the right thing to do, its what i should and am going to. I'm ready, ready to face all those ahead of me, to shed those overflowing tears, for all the changes i should get use to. pray for me? Thanks.

advices anyone?

Saturdae

i had a quite 'empty schedule' this saturday. i started of my day with my breakfast; then i took a shower and was thinking of what to bring for my field trip (which, is on the 17th-18th). after a short while of thinking, i was pretty much talking on the phone for several hours. then, i had bible talk at sammy's house.

it was a blast. btw, back to my fieldtrip, i'm going to bogor, to this resort kindof place. i'm going with the 8a, and seventh graders as well, but it'll be fun. i'll post pictures, i promise!

Rihanna, Chris Brown!

rihanna's concert was supposed to be held today, on the 14th of november in senayan, but then, cz of issues of the bom and wtv, it got CANCELED! can you believe it? okay, i didn't even bought a ticket, but still. haha, i was about to watch, but then the tickets are sold out;'( and besides the cheapest one cost like 750 thou, but i would sacrifice that much to watch her. haha but guess its not happening then? for those who have tickets already, a refund maybe?

rihanna is currently dating chris brown, don't you think they're just the best couple ever? i love them both, they're like matchmade in heaven or something. haha chris brown's dance moves are HAWT! like totally, the ones i like most are superhuman, forever, and with you. as for rihanna, i like take a bow, disturbia, breakin' dishes. haha i love them both, don't you think they match?

Unexplainable Fear

this unexplainable fear grew more and more each day, taking everything i have within me. all that is left is a silent cry, at night. the more i tried to get rid of this fear, the more it creeps to me, more and more each day. is is the fear of losing the ones you love? or is it because i can't handle getting hurt anymore? am i that fragile, i wonder. gathering up all my thoughts, maybe i am already in pieces right now, shattered and left alone on the floor. picking them up but can't seem to put them back the way it use to be.

all this feeling is too much for myself to handle, its going to explode soon out of me; i feel like crying out loud, screaming on top of my lungs, so the whole world can hear me, hear my pain, my cries. i cry, i cry. and while all this happens, whos there for me? to catch me when i fall? having my back? 

i feel so weak, so fragile. will things ever go back the way they used to be? should i keep on hoping, or gather up the pieces and rebuild my life back from 0? i wish i could be a baby again, all so innocent, not knowing what is to expect ahead in life. i took a glimpse of the past, so many decisions i made that i wish i hadn't. i'm regretting, while tears are flowing down my hot red cheeks. 

Quantum Of Solace

what an exuberantly splendid day indeed, i spent my day at plaza senayan with my precious, emily and leann, we watched quantom of solace; the new 007. the movie was actually quite interesting for those of you who likes action movies? but at the same time its a bore. pretty much the whole movie is filled with dialogues here and there, which.. makes you feel like dozing off. 

we were supposed to watch with a bigger group, a way bigger group

 actually. but then people seemed to be canceling up just on saturday morning, which is why the three of us made our own plans and still went there anyhows. after watching, we went window shopping to mango, and zara. dresses are fab! the word breath-taking doesn't even do it justice.

Hoodies Up!

today, emily, leanna and myself decided to held a 'mini photoshoot' at the back of our school, there's this field, yes its small but its just perfect! we brought hoodies with us, like 6 of them, 2 each, and switched hoodies and took pictures, and there are sunflowers! which i have no idea since when are they there, cz since when does sli have sunflowers again? lols pictures; 

5:25 pm

Miss

I miss my dad badly, hes currently in singapore, coming back approximately next tuesday? yeah, i guess. haven't seen him in about a week, gosh. me miss you dad

btw, a slightly refresthing 'something' from this dull day of mine, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KENJI! he goes to my school, a 10th grader, great guy. hope all your wishes come true and you can be a better person in the upcoming future? lols. 

my day was pretty much a bore, today seem so long, empty, dull, barren, yeah. all those words, put them in. of all chem and math worksheets and practices, gosh. but art was quite fun, spraying people water, painting all over your hair, hands, and someone's painting, awesome. lols

how was your day?

Drowning In Despair

i'm drowning in despair.. 

gosh, thats like literally all i can say lately, i say it, i sing it, i dream of it, okay thats too much. but basically, i am drowning in despair. please help me drag me up so i won't keep on drowning, i'm running out of breath, help me, please, i'm begging you to. or should i not ask you, to not feel the pain anymore, to just keep on drowning, so everything will end? what should i do? is it worthed? should i do it? or just let everything go? all these questions clouding my mind, i wish i have they key to find the answers, but unfortunately, i don't... i'm drowning in despair

High School Musical3

high school musical ke3 ini super sensational, and gila buset banyak banget yg mau nonton. i was dying to watch this, tapi full terus. dari senci ke ps ke lalala, gw nonton jg dapet row agak depan. overall it was really intreging. i love the dance&songs. menurut gw, out off everything, hsm3 ini series paling keren dibanding yang lain. i went to senci about noon, and i met the others who watched agak pagian. sammy, gail, bella, julio, teddy, kenji. hha trus kt makan di frankfurter and jalan jalan gajelas. basically, i'm really recommending it to you guys! watch and tell me what you think of it. soo, what do you think?

Goodbye, Ms Sylvia!

*updated

ms sylvia, our math teacher, had to leave us to go to vietnam. we cried, and had a farewell 'surprise' party for her. we took lots of pictures, and she cried too, which

 makes us cry even louder. ms sylvia, we will miss you so badly! good luck in vietnam, and don't forget about us. we all love you! visit us soon, can't wait to see you again! ;'(